pUh LeaSe..

im tired.. i need an extra boost of motivation.. an extra mile coupon or smtg.. just to keep my ass off the ground.. but no i cant..

why.. why are u so cruel to me..
why.. why am i like someone you can just throw around and forget the next day..
whyyy.. whyyy..

thanks but no thanks.. i feel like shit today..

uhmmmm..

you need to askmen.com coz they give u loads of things u wanna know about women.. sex.. sports.. drugs.. (ermm i dunno bout drugs..)
latest gossips.. ahhh.. all the guy stuff.. www.askmen.com

sometimes ignorance is bliss.. but sometimes its not..

when i was lil boy.. i always thought that life is perfect.. life has so much more meaning.. everything i did was fun.. no worries.. no resposibilities.. but as i grew older.. things changed.. you sometimes ignore the fact that u have responsibilities and u forget that ure responsibilities are more important. So then and there when u find out that u need to be serious with what u have, things change..

I dont want life to be a routine.. a planned road.. a straight line.. it gets so boring and old u feel like there is ntg special anymore.. i can go on and on.. bla bla bla.. its boring me to death thats all..

Have any of you guys..been treated differently.. like for example a friend.. he/she is so friendly.. so talkative around his/her friends.. but when that person is with you, he/she is a totally different person. Sometimes you feel it isn't fair that you are treated that way.. instead u want to be treated equally like everyone else... *Cries out Loud*

no point losing your temper.. all u get is a court case gone bad.. which is not a good thing... -_-''' it is if your the judge tho.. ok not funny..

errr im going to dip my head into the toilet bowl now.. you all have a good holiday.. for those who aren't having holidays.. HOHOHO good for you coz im not having one at all..

*Applause*

Everyone thank my darling for doing such a good job in redecorating/renovating/pampering my blog halfway then leave the job unfinished.. and expects me to clean up her mess.. in which i always dun mind.. because im so used to always having to finish her leftovers.. jkjk =D im just bored i feel like suanning someone..

his blog

ok.
confirm.

yeah, confirm.

that it's still screwed up.

how to put the whole thingy in the center?
the funny thing is, when i change background it goes to the center.
and when i change back to this background, it goes to the side.

*dies*

love,
"fat-piggy"

hallooo

hallo. if you are wondering, i am his so-called "fat-piggy" and i volunteered to change his template. but i think i screwed it up. eeks. :P i'm not done yet. but i'm too lazy now.

he doesnt know i'm cincaily writing an entry in his blog.
but he will.
someday.
HOHOHO.
ta~

in the midst of it all..

Damai was an unsual boring but fun experience.. without alcohol thats why.. as bryan threatened us.. that if we bought alcohol he'll throw it away.. and i was this close to getting a few beers but sheila pulled me back.. so no alcohol.. >.< *CrieEssss*

Kayaking was fun.. the view was simply undescribable.. we almost reached the little island but we had to turn back because it was getting dark.. and my arms were starting to fail on me.. despite kayaking.. all we did was swim around at the beach and swimming pool.. and in the room all we did was sang to this game singstar.. which is quite cool.. a game u had to sing along to the lyrics, timing and sing in tune.. at least in tune i think.. and mostly all we did was sleep the whole morning and we went back.. *sighs* waste of a damai trip but we could of gotten more fun out of it.. hehe thats what i think..

NO PICTURES.. wait wait.. got one.. with me and wilh.. *stolen from er blog

Such posers

baRz!nG

I've been going barzing alot lately.. just to chill.. drink and get pissed drunk if there's enough alcohol.. which is not a good thing but when u drink and get drunk who gives right.. =D so there we were.. the few of us.. we bought a bottle.. and in an hours or less than an hours time the whole bottle was gone..

my fat piggy and me..

Close up of us..

Me totally gone by the end of the night..

shifts

i boought these a few days ago.. +D was looking around Lea Sport Centre and i couldnt help it, my eyes were stuck to these babies..

chiang.. and his.. vagina..

ShErM™ says:
sheesh
ShErM™ says:
dont take it to the heart man
Chiang says:
ill just cry in my room instead
ShErM™ says:
don be gay
ShErM™ says:
u know its just to sissy to be gay
ShErM™ says:
u cry.. cry for wad
ShErM™ says:
cry so that mummy and daddy will hear u issit
ShErM™ says:
boo hoo
ShErM™ says:
im so sad to see u cry
Chiang says:
don be so mean to me...
Chiang says:
sniff
ShErM™ says:
sheesh
ShErM™ says:
when did u grow a vagina
ShErM™ says:
hah..
ShErM™ says:
since when did u grow a vagina?
Chiang says:
don scold me lahh
ShErM™ says:
rofl
Chiang says:
my heart very sensitive okk

everyone always leave..

Time and time again.. i always have friends who leave.. its like.. u know there's a bigger place out there but ure just somehow stuck.. ONE day.. im going to go somewhere far.. and u guys can miss me instead.. =D muahuahuahua...

Anyways.. zian u ass.. mich's getting all the fun.. lols.. it kinda does feel wierd not having u around ya know.. even tho u were in brunei.. it felt like u were still here in kch.. but when u left for melb.. i felt like shit.. this time he's really going.. somewhere far.. =(
at least sime comes back.. chiang comes back.. brandon comes back.. gilbert comes back.. even kun comes back.. WHY DONT U COME BACK DECEMBER instead.. i havent saved up any money at all.. sobs..

New Years Eve.. Travill..

~~_~~

A few weeks ago.. a childhood friend of mine from brunei came to Kuching for a wedding.. he called me up.. asked whether i was free and i could pick him up.. first night we went for a movie.. while waiting for the movie we down to waterfront for a walk..

Right opposite Hilton there's a stall there.. forgot whats it called.. but i saw bongs.. lots of it.. 5-6 of em.. and whoaa... i din know there was a shisha place at all.. besides little lebanon.. but ive never tried it there.. i was amazed and wanted to try so badly.. but then there wasnt enough time that night coz our movie was about to start..

CJ called me up the next day.. asked if i wanted to go smoke some shisha.. i was like YES YES! i havent even tried shisha before believe it or not.. but whoo.. so i picked him up and we went.. and tried it.. it tasted abit rough on the throat the first time.. i think it needs getting used to.. but its alot better than smoking believe me.. RM18 a bong.. free refill again.. but the feeling of smoking and smoking it over again makes u get sick of it.. but after when we left.. damn i wanted some more.. sobs..

Sad-ly-ly i din take any pictures that day.. so ill give u a rough picture of how the bong looks like..

the Bong looked smth like this.. but with aluminium foil covering the charcoal on top..

Don't Give Up..

Althought things at this point can be confusing and complicated.. dont give up.. ive been telling myself that for the past few days/weeks.. emotions churning within.. frustration hits.. anger builds.. but my tolerance is still holding me into place.. and i know if i give up.. its the end.. the end of what we both thought could be again..

your still here.. thats what matters.. and time can only tell where we both are headed.. and i know deep within that time wants us to walk together.. even tho were far apart.. or close together..

its hard when one wants and the other one doesnt.. and only time will make one agree with the other.. the hope.. the possibilties.. the memories.. dont let me doubt the thought of being with you..

you said u let go.. i said i havent and will always hold on..
you said u dont love me.. i said that i still love you and always will..
you said u cant go on anymore.. i said that we both can go on if we have each other..
you said ure leaving.. i said that im going with you..
you said u dun wanna go through this anymore.. i said that we aren't going thru it.. we've been thru it..
you said that it hurts to be with me.. i said it hurts to be without you..
you said that ure happy without me.. but deep down inside u.. ure not.. and i said im not happy without u..
you told me to give it all up.. and i told u im never going to..

u do the humpity dumpity..

someone take a broom and whack me.. i need to feel pain because i caused her great pain.. pls.. i guess i deserve it for blowing my any chance of ever even getting the one i love back.. i deserve to even be kicked in the balls.. trampled over.. hung by the neck.. i didnt even mean to do such things.. but things happen and i guess they always take it the wrong way.. id beg on my kness.. hold my breath underwater and drown so u can save me by giving CPR.. anything.. just dont walk away.. u still have my heart and u can break it and tear it and spit on it.. but in the end if u still walk away.. we'd never know what we could be..

a big boo boo..

this is bryan H'ng.. when he was turning 18..
but i dun have a pic of him when he turned 19..
becoz i din take any photos coz everyone else did and i figured id just be lazy and not take any..
i know im 2 days late bRa.. but better than never right.. happy belated bday bRy'..


this is bryan.. showing off his muscles a year ago..
and to the times we had together.. =D

love is all around you..

coz i feel it in my fingers.. i feel it in my toes.. blah blah blah.. YaY.. i dont know why i feel so cheerful and gay today.. but somehow.. i find that feeling cheerful and gay.. really makes my day.. actually i have ntg to write about.. forgive me for my non inspiring post.. its really just a reflection of just how i feel.. i gotta go.. EAT CHOW!

hmmmmm

okok enough shit talk already.. lets get down to some serious business.. ive been getting lots of cirticism lately about who i look like.. some might say i look like jay leno.. some might look like jack black.. i dun even know which one is close.. i'll leave u to decide that.. shall we.. hmmmmm

is it him?

or is it him?

Things wont always turn out the way u wan em to be..

i've found it hard time and time again to make things right but sometimes it just doesnt work.. u try hard and things just turn out even worse.. and when u dont try u feel there's smth wrong and u just cant help it but want to try.. and that someone doesnt even try at all.. its hard la... i was having a chat with a friend last night.. and things dont actually seem good even tho they say it is.. sometimes u can just see thru someone and know that things aren't so good.. everyone can see thru me like a transparent glass.. all my close frens can tell if there's smth going wrong.. and actually things have been going wrong for me for a few months now and i just can't fix it.. times change and u find there isn't actually much u can do about it..

if u really love someone so much.. ure so scared of letting go because ure unsure what the outcome will be in the end.. is that really love? or is it fear? to be honest i dun really know.. its true u'll always have ure ups and downs in ure relationship but what happens if things just become stale.. things become wierd all of a sudden and.. of course u wanna find out whats the problem.. but there's no answer to it.. you'll feel all insecure.. anxious.. curious all at the same time and its not a good feeling to have..

sometimes i feel like giving up on everything but is it really worth giving up just because u feel like shit.. no right? im holding on for dear life.. hoping that day would come.. but i know it aint gonna come anymore coz things aren't the way it used to be anymore..

ohh myy ohh myyy..

on a boring thurs night.. u play taiti/Big2.. and loser drinks a cup of chivas with coke la.. ok la not so bad la.. but then u know how much i hate chivas.. luckily i din lose 5 times straight in a row.. or i wont be able to go home..

bert the major loser.. lost 3 times.. so he had to down it 3 times.. keng man.. JACK U DIN ONE GO AT ALL.. Loser..

oh shit.. i look like a mofo gay ass shit.. my bad.. a sexy homosexual little cute boy.. HAHA LOOK AT BERT!

the three kuchingians.. staying true to kuching.. not leaving.. yet?~

damn streamyx

ive been trying to post for quite some time now.. but my pics wont upload.. due to i dunno whatever reason.. but really now streamyx is getting on my nerves.. sorry for complaining.. sometimes its fine.. really good.. fast.. and sometimes u can just wait there for like minutes.. like for at least a pic to show.. my goodness.. if the connection was good at home or at my office.. id at least have 5 posts up by now.. but since it aint so good.. im sorry.. PiaK(smack) my comp also no use.. call streamyx ask them make the connection faster issit.. send more bytes.. grrrrRRrrrr.. i cant even log on to my msn now.. wads this.. never ever had this prob b4..

phone call.. gotta get that...

time after time..

There she goes.. there she goes again.. my fat sexy dancing piggy has gone back to nilai.. which is quite good la.. not so much clubbing anymore.. but then again is also bad la.. i love clubbing also.. hmmmm.. sorry haven't been updating lately.. i really apologize.. more things to do in reality ya know.. life is too short.. don ya think? life expectancy 50 - 70 maybe nowadays.. depending.. ive been having a bad cough.. so bad that i need to cough to breathe normally.. i guess its just phlegm stuck in my windpipes.. but really.. stopped me from smoking.. i hope i can continue on without fags.. altho its tempting.. health's important.. sighs.. im working now.. i got a few pics to post.. i'll post em when i get home tonight or probably when im more free.. chiao ppl..

Dota Dota DoT AH!!~~~~

Every guy's favourite game and past time.. seriously.. Dota is the biggest topic guys talk about.. no doubt.. spend half your allowances/salary at cyber's just playing it.. actually i thought i got very sick of it at one point.. but its like a ciggarette u just need it.. so if u havent got the chance to play dota.. good.. don't!!

some more u got so many friggin heroes to choose from and.. it takes time to learn how to use them properly.. never ending combinations.. and shit u can do..

*coughs*

For those of you who dunno how a male brain looks like from the inside.. here's a closer look.. esp u angie.. since ure so fond of brains.. HAHA! jk..

As you all can see.. there are 2 big words repeated in our brains.. that is sex.. yes we might think of sex often but doesnt mean that all we think of is gettin it on.. God created us this way.. dern blame us for always being horny or complain that we never get enough.. u girls get enough of shopping or not.. no right.. HAH! i knew it.. if u female beings had like $50 million i think it still wouldnt be enough for shopping.. yes we love... sports... cars.. tv and remotes.. and scanning crotch areas?? im not sure bout that but im guessing its scanning chest areas.. im lazy to get into detail.. lets skip to the female brain shall we..

I guess that sums it all up..

Back in the Time...

ahhh gee.. i miss the old days where nothing used to matter.. no worries.. no stress.. when we were little weeners so to speak.. everything was just laid out for u at the table.. sometimes life forces you to change even when u dont want to... its what they call inevitable.. some people mature faster.. some people mature slower.. only life situations can determine it.. but i've learnt alot during my teen years.. its my last teen year and so far the last teen year is the worst when u go thru all this hormonal changes.. new workplaces/colleges.. have all your close frens leaving.. and u are not actually say forced to go out there and find new frens, its just that u dont wanna feel left out.. am i right? i may be wrong so correct me if i am..

Past 2 weeks again have been really terrible for me.. i just really dont know why.. things havent been the way it was for me.. i've been happier thats all i can say.. altho at times life pulls u down.. u always have good frens who come back at the right time.. they slap u and u wake up and see the real big picture.. not only to look at it from one perspective but at many different points.. simes back so i not only got company.. i gets lots of bum sex.. sorry zian.. ure missing out.. LoLs.. joking around.. i miss u zian.. really enjoyed ure company while u were here.. now look who's got a new chick huh.. lols..

ahh phewwwyyyy im bored..

Q. Why is it called a Wonder Bra?
A. When she takes it off, you wonder where her tits went.

Q. Why don't women blink during foreplay?
A. They don't have time.

Q. Why does it take 1 million sperm to fertilize 1 egg?
A. They don't stop for directions.

Q. How do you make five pounds of fat look good?
A. Give it a nipple.

Q. What did Adam say to Eve?
A. Stand back, I don't know how big this thing gets!

Q. How do you know when you are getting old?
A. When you start having dry dreams and wet farts

Q. What do Disney World & Viagra have in common?
A. They both make you wait an hour for a two minute ride.

Q. Why don't witches wear panties when flying on their broomsticks?
A. Better traction.

Q. Who can make more money in a week, a drug dealer or a prostitute?
A. The prostitute because she can wash and resell her crack.

Q. Why do bunnies have soft sex?
A. They have cotton balls

Q. How many newspapers can a woman hold between her legs?
A. One Post, two Globes, and many Times.

Q. Why do female skydivers wear jock straps?
A. So they don't whistle on the way down.

Q. What do women and police cars have in common?
A. They both make a lot of noise to let you know they are coming.

Q. Why is a woman's pussy like a warm toilet seat?
A. They both feel good, but you wonder who was there before you.

Q. What is the first sign of AIDS?
A. A pounding sensation in the ass.

Q. What did Cinderella do when she got to the ball?
A. Gagged

Q. What is the Difference Between Pussy and Apple Pie?
A. You can eat your mom's apple pie.

cLicK

I must say this is one of the best movies i've ever watched in my whole entire 19 years of my life.. it's hilarious.. its touching.. so when u put those 2 in a movie.. u get a damn frigging touching hilarious movie! and plus u got kate Beckinsale straddling along in the movie.. woooooooo... its a must watch movie for everyone out there.. after i watched it i felt like.. appreciating everything i had.. my parents.. my car.. my frens.. my sisters.. my job.. my work.. my baby ping ping.. its true how they say time flies.. but he made it go even faster and he missed so much in his life.. so i recommend this movie for everyone.. including yew! those who have watched it.. wells.. u cant say it wasn't a good movie...

when u got adam sandler in a movie.. be prepared to laugh ure shit out~

She was the hottie.. and i didn't even know she was in the movie until i saw her.. crikEy~

shmucks..

weee hooo.. aLbert Ngu tu doo is backs.. so is the smelly queen ping ping.. and our chinese new year dong dong dong chiang.. i wanted to post more pics from KL but i din have the time.. ive been looking for these three cool people.. very cool.. sense the sarcasm please if u dont.. im just going to have to tell u the truth.. these 3 aint cool.. their just posers.. anyways.. simes.. come back quick pls.. zian... ahhhh... dun wanna say anything la.. ask u to come back now would like be asking u to pay RM3000 or more for just a week or 2 weeks trip only.. ill try to blog more i promise.. i just need smth interesting to blog about that just the plain old clubbing posts.. i shall go forth and break havoc to the world.. nyehehehe.. like i can..

some pics...

A special thanks to Jessie Tey for the pics from KL.. i brought my cam.. but after taking like 12 pics.. it said "memory full" i was shocked.. i checked the memory stick and it turns out i brought the 16MB stick.. which was pathetic.. it came along with the came the first time i bought it.. and dang.. so jess was the rajin girl who took all the pics for me =D thanks jess.. u sweet little piggy..

Q Bar~

SheiLa And me Doin The Rock AwaY~


WEee YeNnn, ing Haw, Sheila, ShermS..


three of them still there.. i changed place with Jessie~

Nouvo~


3 lovely ladies piggy jessie, Wee Wee, and JoaNne

Jack's Place which was at "My Place"


ing haw and Jack going to get high~


lazing around time~ =D
The guy on the top left is Stanley.. stanley..


This little pig danced so hard that she died on the spot after reaching jack's place~ =D


This big pig was hyper and wanted some more fun~ Actually it was the other way round.. i was supposed to be down on ground while sheila was jumping up and down..


This Medium Piggy.. was posing for her own camera.. LoLs~ sorry jess.. and thanks again jess..


we both really look like pigs.. sexy ones.. muaHUahua~


1 little 2 little 3 little piggies..


all got squished by ing haw~


Piggy Back~


Bummed out~


this was almost around 5am in the morning.. i was seriously bout to die already..


Exhaustion~


OK~ no more i promise..

surprise...

Sorry i haven't been updating lately.. its been a while.. i felt like i din even have a blog anymore.. but deep down inside i knew i had one but i was just maybe i couldn't be bothered after such a long time or just plain lazy..

anyways.. in the last 2 weeks was really a rough time fer me.. went thru so much turbulence in my life it shook me hard.. so hard that i fell down and i thought i couldn't get up again.. but i was wrong.. positive thinking was important for me.. without it, i would of just been lost..

i needed some motivation to get thru those 2 weeks.. so i booked myself a flight to KL.. things turned out even better for me over there.. see frens.... my queen was so surprised to see me.. i showed up not knowing what she would do to me or say to me coz she didn't know i was coming.. but with the help of her room mate.. everything went according to planned and the surprise was succesful.. her face was priceless.. she was like stunned so badly.. it was just worth seeing her in that state.. it meant alot to me even tho sheila had her finals.. she still came down to subang with me.. i could feel her need to study so badly but she took the liberty of coming down with me anyway.. n i love her fer that..

we took at KTM down to subang jaya station.. and sime picked me up from there.. it was almost around 9pm and my friday was almost gone.. but the night was still young.. was so happy to see sime after such a long time.. he's been like a primary 6 fren till now.. and he's always been there for me.. so after he picked sheila and me up.. we went to pick wun chiang whom i see everytime in kch.. lols.. and we went to long kai? kai long? kong lai? i still cant remember that place still, for dinner.. clet and denise met up with us.. lols.. still the same since they left kuching.. but they had to go back after meeting up at long kai.. kai long.. kong lai??

after dinner we were deciding where to go.. the two lovely ladies whom i met at damai/rainforest.. jessie and wee yen.. met us at mentari court.. where ing haw and chiang stays.. thats where we waited and decided where to go for like 2 to almost 3 hours.. its either.. foosball and pool or clubbing.. after much indecisive making we finally decided to go clubbing at Q bar.. i think thats how ya spell it.. and off we went.. sime and chiang didn't join us.. but they went to asia cafe.. to play pool with Jack..

we bought a bottle at Q bar.. and after like 2 - 3 drinks.. the music stopped.. people started leaving.. i was blur.. seriously.. then wee yen ran out.. ditched us totally HAHA.. sheila was so worried like a little girl.. whispering to me that she didn't have her IC.. once one guy who came in to ask fer the IC.. we quickly went out.. ing haw took the bottle and ran somewhere.. jessie went back in to get her bag.. sheila and i was like totally ??? long story short.. we decided to go asia cafe to meet up with sime..Jack and chiang.. played pool abit.. and next thing i know were at "My Place" where Jack stays somewhere around the playground.. listening to Music.. singing.. and sheila was trying to study.. i felt bad honestly.. after the playground we all went back home.. sheila and i stayed at sime's place.. which was high tech man.. security pin code door lock.. security camera's.. gawd.. but the place was cool.. had astro.. so i watched football till 6am while sheila studied.. sime slept straight away..

next day was rather similar.. sheila had to go back to nilai at around 1 coz she had a stats paper to sit for at 4pm.. we we woke up rather early to send sheila to the KTM.. and from there.. i think we picked up Jack and we went to Sunway to have kebab.. MMmmm.. and walked around talked.. and we went to drink at umm.. kim gary's.. clet and denise met up with us again.. but for a short while.. then we went back to sime's place again.. there jessie and ing haw met up with us.. wa.. such a long story leh..

sheila came down again around almost 10pm.. picked everyone else up and we went down to KL.. woOOooo.. thanks sime for the drive.. meant alot to us.. we wanted to go Passion but in the end we somehow ended up in Nouvo.. which was not bad at all.. bought a bottle.. drank and danced whole night long.. somehow i just din feel right coz.. sime wasn't dancing.. tried getting him to have fun.. but it was like pulling a whale to the sand.. chiang had slippers.. that was his excuse for not dancing.. the rest ing haw.. jack.. wee yen.. jessie.. oh and another 2 new frens who joined us.. joanne and stanley.. were all dancing like there was no tomoro.. not to forget sheila.. danced like a pussy cat doll man.. should of seen her.. wild pussy cat.. (*)_(*) we were all drenched with sweat.. and it was time to leave.. simon was our better man.. and he drove the few of us back safely.. without him.. we wouldn't of able to have that kinda of fun.. sime was the heart and soul that night..

i wanted to hit the bed badly but sheila told me u shouldn't waste ure time here on sleep.. so i decided to join them for some after party kinda thing.. at jack's place.. wee yen and joanne left early coz joanne had to study.. i was lying down on the mattress the whole time.. while sheila.. jack.. haw.. stan.. and jess were talking.. talked about dunno wad till almost 6am then finally jessie said les go eat.. we all went for breakfast at some indian place.. gawd.. they ordered a buffet there.. i was a half dead zombie.. after breakfast it was about 8.30 and we said our goodbyes to inggie.. jessie.. and stan.... and my queen and i walked back to simes place which wasnt so far.. got there and we both slept like pigs..

1pm.. it was time for me to go back.. and sime dropped sheila and i off at the KTM.. was so sad leaving sime..meant everything to me.. thanks sime.. and went to KL central... my flight was at 3.25pm and it was almost 2pm when i reached KL central.. so sheila decided i should take the express down to KLIA and take a shuttle or taxi to LCCT.. said our lovely goodbyes to each other again.. and off i went to the express alone.. i was in time for my flight.. i really thought i was gonna miss it.. but damn.. i didnt.. that was my trip.. which i could of written shortly but since i haven't updated my blog for so long.. i'll put it in detail.. pictures ill upload when i get them from jess..

positive.. negative..

im quite.. out of things to blog.. i have no motivation now.. ive lost my source of hope for a certain moment of time.. so i guess ill take a break from blogging.. so there'll be more to write about.. tune in 2 weeks from now.. chiao~

Long distance is a bitch

(Quoted by Kedung Bulan Rachel)

Yah lor.. LD i like to call it is really a bitch lor.. u know the female dog.. ahh nvm... for some people.. long distance may feel like the end of the world loh.. and for some it would feel like a challenge/test for the couple lor.. not easy ah.. but must try la.. love mah.. wad to do..

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder lor.. hoh.. really ah.. my heart ache leh.. growing too stale already.. no la.. haha jus kidding la.. sheila still in my heart la.. hee hee..sometimes going to the airport the most saddest part lor.. where u have to leave him or her.. and say goodbye.. kiss kiss.. slap lorh if not happy.. and when they go in u feel some part of u leaving into the terminal as well lorh.. like she/he pull and drag ure heart on the floor with her/him lorh.. if not happy with them going.. hopefully can bypass security into the loading bay and throw sai(shit) at the aeroplane lorh.. hope the pilot stop the whole flight because got sai(shit) on his window and cannot take off lorh..

not easy la.. not easy.. after a few months of "heeloO.. GooD mornings! how was ure day.. mine was fine tq.. no i did not look at this girl/guy.. bla bla bla bla bla bla.."

ure convo would end up like "helo.. ... ... ... oh ok.. bye"

total change in communication lorh.. no more.. "yeahh. i love u.. bye.. muaks.. gnites.. think of me.. dream of me..i'll dream of you.."

well.. if u want a LD relationships to work.. 2 must work together.. not leave the other hanging while the other has all the fun.. u 2 are in this together.. most importantly be there when they need u the most.. one thing ive learned is not to be too clingy as in like dun call 24/7 and msg 500 sms a day lorh.. it'll not only like bother her/him like hell.. it would also cost u a bomb.. so in fact.. msg when u really need to.. restrain ureself from calling.. hold ureself back!! if u can.. if not.. call la.. call some more..

Give words of encouragement to each other.. assure each other there's no one else in their minds.. but.. but each other.. don like go.. saying hey.. "im cheating on you.. WOO HOO.." F- ah.. life's a bitch as well if that happens.. and like when got smth going on.. and ure other half calls.. don go.. "Eh eh.. busy la.. bye.." talk nicely lorh.. say.. "sorry love/dear/honey/piggy/boo boo/mr malaysia.. im quite busy now.. can u call back later.. or ill get back to u.. ok.. bye.. muaks" (*) A+ Long distance is mainly about communication lorh.. no communication means.. an empty relationship lorh.. just like marriage lorh.. how can u not talk to ure wife or husband day by day.. its just not right lorh..

but sometimes i wait and wait.. and suffer the agony of waiting each moment to pass.. still no call or msg.. i feel like GRrRrrrR.. insecurity seeps in.. deep.. ure head cannot stop thinking lorh.. u need to help ure other half clear the doubts and insecurities.. thru talking (C O M M U N I C A T I O N) hearing each others voice can be soothing as well..soothing to the ears and helps relax the muscles.. and since if ure feeling down or unhappy.. they not there for physical bonding lor.. no hugs.. no kisses.. so communication couples.. comfort them.. do not declare Cold war lorh.. if u do. heart very cold and empty in the end lorh.. until one apologizes first lorh..

it'll be a plus if u had a webcam and mic lorh.. personally u all going thru LD should use skype.. if not.. msn will do la.. and if somehow cannot remember face anymore.. can see each other lorh.. mic is so that no need to buy reload day by day lorh.. or every once in 3 - 4 days lorh and see ure phone bill like paying car loan like that.... but in my case.. my boo boo in Nilai.. so connection slow like turle la.. can see each other on skype but then.. dc every minute one.. cannot lorh.. mic when u talk.. u say hi.. it sounds like byee.. coz lag too much.. cannot lorh.. wad to do.. LD is a bitch lorh..

but i salute all who's going thru Long Distance relationships.. and i wish u all the best to you and your other half.. i hope this post very informative lor.. make u know how the other half feeling lor.. so chiaoo..

untitled..

times change... everything changes.. sometimes things just dun turn out the way u want them to be.. its inevitable.. people change and there's no stopping that.. i feel like there's nth i could do to stop the things i wanted from leaving me.. from turning into memories.. and whats left is just me in a cold empty state.. i would just wonder what it would be like if everything i wanted was right in front of me.. would i be like this.. would i still be that sherman that everyone knows.. but it seems like everything i wanted doesnt seem to stay with me.. i seem to lose them when the time comes.. and the thing is that.. i find that people who leave change.. i still remain the same.. in my same old state.. while everyone has another life to live elsewhere.. i continue on with the one i've always had.. just with loved ones gone.. in a different country.. diff state pursuing their dreams.. i feel like im the black sheep left behind.. falling backwards instead of moving forward.. sometimes i feel its not fair.. but what is fair..? a homeless child without food and clothes and anybody to feel love and warmth from.. i cant go on living and feeling like im in a useless state.. but guys/gals.. do appreciate what u have.. sometimes i know i dun appreciate my parents enough for what they've done for me.. for what they've given me.. but i treasure it.. coz once reailty comes and there not here anymore.. it hits u.. i don get enough appreciation from a particular someone.. im not saying who.. but it's painful when u dun feel appreciated.. sometimes saying a simple i love u.. can just light up anyones day.. i know it lights up mine.. so remember.. appreciation can come from a simple thank you.. i love u.. or just that memorable smile.. make the change for the better.. not for the worse..

what i love doing..

Everytime.. i get down.. depressed.. or whenever i need to clear my mind.. i go do what i love doing.. i go have fun.. kicking footballs.. while the the wind blows in my face when im running.. it keeps me in a adrenaline rush.. when u score that goal that helps ure team wins.. when u defend and block balls from going into ure own goal.. as they say.. a good defense is a good offense...

guess who gave me that ball =D

now ya see it.. now ya dont..

i gotta run..

smth i forgot to mention~

I SAW KENNY SIA! OMFG u shud see his tummy HAHA.. no offence.. but he is big in mass.. but lols.. here's a conversation i had with Wee Yen.. a fren whom i just met at damai/rainforest..


ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
believe it.. KENNY SIA talkin to us
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
i was surprised
All I want is everything... says:
oh yeahh
All I want is everything... says:
n sheila was like
All I want is everything... says:
okok
All I want is everything... says:
nice talking to u
All I want is everything... says:
bye bye
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
HAHA
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
yah
All I want is everything... says:
when he was still halfway talking
All I want is everything... says:
fucking funny sial
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
shooed him away
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
HAHAHA
All I want is everything... says:
i was like babeeee
All I want is everything... says:
thaty's kenny sia wei
All I want is everything... says:
aahaha
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
HAHAHA
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
but he's fat but funny
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
thats the thing bout him
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
FARKING FUNNY

the after party..

Stressful stressful.. having the ones u love leave.. and having italy take the cup.. and having not enough sleep.. rainforest over.. all contributes to a depressing day.. so.. i had to get out and let it out.. so i got a msg from ing haw.. he told me they were going grappa to drink.. oh.. ok.. that's what i needed.. a chance to forget things.. sadd times.. grappa on a monday night~