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times change... everything changes.. sometimes things just dun turn out the way u want them to be.. its inevitable.. people change and there's no stopping that.. i feel like there's nth i could do to stop the things i wanted from leaving me.. from turning into memories.. and whats left is just me in a cold empty state.. i would just wonder what it would be like if everything i wanted was right in front of me.. would i be like this.. would i still be that sherman that everyone knows.. but it seems like everything i wanted doesnt seem to stay with me.. i seem to lose them when the time comes.. and the thing is that.. i find that people who leave change.. i still remain the same.. in my same old state.. while everyone has another life to live elsewhere.. i continue on with the one i've always had.. just with loved ones gone.. in a different country.. diff state pursuing their dreams.. i feel like im the black sheep left behind.. falling backwards instead of moving forward.. sometimes i feel its not fair.. but what is fair..? a homeless child without food and clothes and anybody to feel love and warmth from.. i cant go on living and feeling like im in a useless state.. but guys/gals.. do appreciate what u have.. sometimes i know i dun appreciate my parents enough for what they've done for me.. for what they've given me.. but i treasure it.. coz once reailty comes and there not here anymore.. it hits u.. i don get enough appreciation from a particular someone.. im not saying who.. but it's painful when u dun feel appreciated.. sometimes saying a simple i love u.. can just light up anyones day.. i know it lights up mine.. so remember.. appreciation can come from a simple thank you.. i love u.. or just that memorable smile.. make the change for the better.. not for the worse..