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A few weeks ago.. a childhood friend of mine from brunei came to Kuching for a wedding.. he called me up.. asked whether i was free and i could pick him up.. first night we went for a movie.. while waiting for the movie we down to waterfront for a walk..

Right opposite Hilton there's a stall there.. forgot whats it called.. but i saw bongs.. lots of it.. 5-6 of em.. and whoaa... i din know there was a shisha place at all.. besides little lebanon.. but ive never tried it there.. i was amazed and wanted to try so badly.. but then there wasnt enough time that night coz our movie was about to start..

CJ called me up the next day.. asked if i wanted to go smoke some shisha.. i was like YES YES! i havent even tried shisha before believe it or not.. but whoo.. so i picked him up and we went.. and tried it.. it tasted abit rough on the throat the first time.. i think it needs getting used to.. but its alot better than smoking believe me.. RM18 a bong.. free refill again.. but the feeling of smoking and smoking it over again makes u get sick of it.. but after when we left.. damn i wanted some more.. sobs..

Sad-ly-ly i din take any pictures that day.. so ill give u a rough picture of how the bong looks like..

the Bong looked smth like this.. but with aluminium foil covering the charcoal on top..

Don't Give Up..

Althought things at this point can be confusing and complicated.. dont give up.. ive been telling myself that for the past few days/weeks.. emotions churning within.. frustration hits.. anger builds.. but my tolerance is still holding me into place.. and i know if i give up.. its the end.. the end of what we both thought could be again..

your still here.. thats what matters.. and time can only tell where we both are headed.. and i know deep within that time wants us to walk together.. even tho were far apart.. or close together..

its hard when one wants and the other one doesnt.. and only time will make one agree with the other.. the hope.. the possibilties.. the memories.. dont let me doubt the thought of being with you..

you said u let go.. i said i havent and will always hold on..
you said u dont love me.. i said that i still love you and always will..
you said u cant go on anymore.. i said that we both can go on if we have each other..
you said ure leaving.. i said that im going with you..
you said u dun wanna go through this anymore.. i said that we aren't going thru it.. we've been thru it..
you said that it hurts to be with me.. i said it hurts to be without you..
you said that ure happy without me.. but deep down inside u.. ure not.. and i said im not happy without u..
you told me to give it all up.. and i told u im never going to..

u do the humpity dumpity..

someone take a broom and whack me.. i need to feel pain because i caused her great pain.. pls.. i guess i deserve it for blowing my any chance of ever even getting the one i love back.. i deserve to even be kicked in the balls.. trampled over.. hung by the neck.. i didnt even mean to do such things.. but things happen and i guess they always take it the wrong way.. id beg on my kness.. hold my breath underwater and drown so u can save me by giving CPR.. anything.. just dont walk away.. u still have my heart and u can break it and tear it and spit on it.. but in the end if u still walk away.. we'd never know what we could be..

a big boo boo..

this is bryan H'ng.. when he was turning 18..
but i dun have a pic of him when he turned 19..
becoz i din take any photos coz everyone else did and i figured id just be lazy and not take any..
i know im 2 days late bRa.. but better than never right.. happy belated bday bRy'..


this is bryan.. showing off his muscles a year ago..
and to the times we had together.. =D