positive.. negative..

im quite.. out of things to blog.. i have no motivation now.. ive lost my source of hope for a certain moment of time.. so i guess ill take a break from blogging.. so there'll be more to write about.. tune in 2 weeks from now.. chiao~

Long distance is a bitch

(Quoted by Kedung Bulan Rachel)

Yah lor.. LD i like to call it is really a bitch lor.. u know the female dog.. ahh nvm... for some people.. long distance may feel like the end of the world loh.. and for some it would feel like a challenge/test for the couple lor.. not easy ah.. but must try la.. love mah.. wad to do..

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder lor.. hoh.. really ah.. my heart ache leh.. growing too stale already.. no la.. haha jus kidding la.. sheila still in my heart la.. hee hee..sometimes going to the airport the most saddest part lor.. where u have to leave him or her.. and say goodbye.. kiss kiss.. slap lorh if not happy.. and when they go in u feel some part of u leaving into the terminal as well lorh.. like she/he pull and drag ure heart on the floor with her/him lorh.. if not happy with them going.. hopefully can bypass security into the loading bay and throw sai(shit) at the aeroplane lorh.. hope the pilot stop the whole flight because got sai(shit) on his window and cannot take off lorh..

not easy la.. not easy.. after a few months of "heeloO.. GooD mornings! how was ure day.. mine was fine tq.. no i did not look at this girl/guy.. bla bla bla bla bla bla.."

ure convo would end up like "helo.. ... ... ... oh ok.. bye"

total change in communication lorh.. no more.. "yeahh. i love u.. bye.. muaks.. gnites.. think of me.. dream of me..i'll dream of you.."

well.. if u want a LD relationships to work.. 2 must work together.. not leave the other hanging while the other has all the fun.. u 2 are in this together.. most importantly be there when they need u the most.. one thing ive learned is not to be too clingy as in like dun call 24/7 and msg 500 sms a day lorh.. it'll not only like bother her/him like hell.. it would also cost u a bomb.. so in fact.. msg when u really need to.. restrain ureself from calling.. hold ureself back!! if u can.. if not.. call la.. call some more..

Give words of encouragement to each other.. assure each other there's no one else in their minds.. but.. but each other.. don like go.. saying hey.. "im cheating on you.. WOO HOO.." F- ah.. life's a bitch as well if that happens.. and like when got smth going on.. and ure other half calls.. don go.. "Eh eh.. busy la.. bye.." talk nicely lorh.. say.. "sorry love/dear/honey/piggy/boo boo/mr malaysia.. im quite busy now.. can u call back later.. or ill get back to u.. ok.. bye.. muaks" (*) A+ Long distance is mainly about communication lorh.. no communication means.. an empty relationship lorh.. just like marriage lorh.. how can u not talk to ure wife or husband day by day.. its just not right lorh..

but sometimes i wait and wait.. and suffer the agony of waiting each moment to pass.. still no call or msg.. i feel like GRrRrrrR.. insecurity seeps in.. deep.. ure head cannot stop thinking lorh.. u need to help ure other half clear the doubts and insecurities.. thru talking (C O M M U N I C A T I O N) hearing each others voice can be soothing as well..soothing to the ears and helps relax the muscles.. and since if ure feeling down or unhappy.. they not there for physical bonding lor.. no hugs.. no kisses.. so communication couples.. comfort them.. do not declare Cold war lorh.. if u do. heart very cold and empty in the end lorh.. until one apologizes first lorh..

it'll be a plus if u had a webcam and mic lorh.. personally u all going thru LD should use skype.. if not.. msn will do la.. and if somehow cannot remember face anymore.. can see each other lorh.. mic is so that no need to buy reload day by day lorh.. or every once in 3 - 4 days lorh and see ure phone bill like paying car loan like that.... but in my case.. my boo boo in Nilai.. so connection slow like turle la.. can see each other on skype but then.. dc every minute one.. cannot lorh.. mic when u talk.. u say hi.. it sounds like byee.. coz lag too much.. cannot lorh.. wad to do.. LD is a bitch lorh..

but i salute all who's going thru Long Distance relationships.. and i wish u all the best to you and your other half.. i hope this post very informative lor.. make u know how the other half feeling lor.. so chiaoo..

untitled..

times change... everything changes.. sometimes things just dun turn out the way u want them to be.. its inevitable.. people change and there's no stopping that.. i feel like there's nth i could do to stop the things i wanted from leaving me.. from turning into memories.. and whats left is just me in a cold empty state.. i would just wonder what it would be like if everything i wanted was right in front of me.. would i be like this.. would i still be that sherman that everyone knows.. but it seems like everything i wanted doesnt seem to stay with me.. i seem to lose them when the time comes.. and the thing is that.. i find that people who leave change.. i still remain the same.. in my same old state.. while everyone has another life to live elsewhere.. i continue on with the one i've always had.. just with loved ones gone.. in a different country.. diff state pursuing their dreams.. i feel like im the black sheep left behind.. falling backwards instead of moving forward.. sometimes i feel its not fair.. but what is fair..? a homeless child without food and clothes and anybody to feel love and warmth from.. i cant go on living and feeling like im in a useless state.. but guys/gals.. do appreciate what u have.. sometimes i know i dun appreciate my parents enough for what they've done for me.. for what they've given me.. but i treasure it.. coz once reailty comes and there not here anymore.. it hits u.. i don get enough appreciation from a particular someone.. im not saying who.. but it's painful when u dun feel appreciated.. sometimes saying a simple i love u.. can just light up anyones day.. i know it lights up mine.. so remember.. appreciation can come from a simple thank you.. i love u.. or just that memorable smile.. make the change for the better.. not for the worse..

what i love doing..

Everytime.. i get down.. depressed.. or whenever i need to clear my mind.. i go do what i love doing.. i go have fun.. kicking footballs.. while the the wind blows in my face when im running.. it keeps me in a adrenaline rush.. when u score that goal that helps ure team wins.. when u defend and block balls from going into ure own goal.. as they say.. a good defense is a good offense...

guess who gave me that ball =D

now ya see it.. now ya dont..

i gotta run..

smth i forgot to mention~

I SAW KENNY SIA! OMFG u shud see his tummy HAHA.. no offence.. but he is big in mass.. but lols.. here's a conversation i had with Wee Yen.. a fren whom i just met at damai/rainforest..


ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
believe it.. KENNY SIA talkin to us
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
i was surprised
All I want is everything... says:
oh yeahh
All I want is everything... says:
n sheila was like
All I want is everything... says:
okok
All I want is everything... says:
nice talking to u
All I want is everything... says:
bye bye
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
HAHA
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
yah
All I want is everything... says:
when he was still halfway talking
All I want is everything... says:
fucking funny sial
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
shooed him away
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
HAHAHA
All I want is everything... says:
i was like babeeee
All I want is everything... says:
thaty's kenny sia wei
All I want is everything... says:
aahaha
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
HAHAHA
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
but he's fat but funny
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
thats the thing bout him
ShErM™ - www.shermanieboo.blogspot.com says:
FARKING FUNNY

the after party..

Stressful stressful.. having the ones u love leave.. and having italy take the cup.. and having not enough sleep.. rainforest over.. all contributes to a depressing day.. so.. i had to get out and let it out.. so i got a msg from ing haw.. he told me they were going grappa to drink.. oh.. ok.. that's what i needed.. a chance to forget things.. sadd times.. grappa on a monday night~

The sad part~

After we all came back to kuching.. we had hainanese chicken rice.. thanks care.. so sweet of ya.. treating all of us.. after eating we went straight to the airport.. ta see care off.. sad sad leaving everybody.. after the send off we went home.. then it was time for sheila to leave.. sobs.. sent her to the airport.. =(

ChEeSe~

Takin pIcs at The AirPoRt~

babes.. i hate it when u leave me.. its damn saddenning..

hates it.. i go.. i leave.. u come u leave.. why not.. i go.. u leave.. u come.. i leave.. GRRR..

sad leaving u all the time..

loving u always..

missing u here always..

RaInFoReSt 2006~

i've been away for a few days so i din have time to blog and sog all that.. wells.. rainforest was a blassttt.. ping ping came back.. that made it more complete fer me =D it was more like a fun reunion.. carey.. ing haw.. rachel.. helong.. all those cacat ppl came back.. LoLz.. jk.. on friday most of them were all down there already.. but sheila and i took a night trip there.. and met up with a few of em.. walk here walk there.. went back around 3..

On saturday.. my boo and i.. went down to damai around 4 - 5pm coz sheila had errands to run.. so once we reached there they all finished kayaking.. so sad.. huhuhu.. wanna cry.. we swam for a while.. after that got ready for rainforest.. wahh.. damn pack as usual on a saturday night.. but it was good la.. sheila got drunk.. YAH.. SHEILA GOT DRUNK can u believe it.. first time ever in the malaysian book of records datuk ahmid bidi sawi wadeva.. oh my.. she was a handful.. taking care of sheila was like taking care of three naughty kids altogether.. but F**K i din take pics of her drunk.. i was too busy.. we were all at the beach.. and that's where i met some new faces.. Wee Yen.. Jessie.. Zannie.. Jordan i mean actually Alvin.. I cant remember the rest tho.. but yah we just sat there and talk talk talk talk.. drink.. talk talk.. laugh.. at sheila.. cb a stranger came.. and all of a sudden everybody was burying him in sand.. so i joined them.. then after a while sheila joined in.. she started throwing sand on his face.. WAHHA.. my goodness.. she was too drunk to even remember she did that.. so yah.. then chit chat.. talk.. and sheila was like 3x worst than me when im drunk.. she was the chatterbox of the night.. potong steamer.. lolz.. spoil all the jokes and shit.. but it was fun.. i would want to know how sheila is like when she's drunk.. here are some pics la.. lz to type..

Clara.. Sheila.. and Helong.. posing with CoWgirl hats..


Carey.. and i.. sheila behind..

My SeXaY~

ShEeRah.. CareY.. ShErM..

mE.. AnDrEw.. CaRe.. Ing hAw~

SQuEEZing In~
with ThuR.. pingss.. and drew..

so scared.. these 2 girls were wild that night!

HelonG.. BabEs.. Me.. Group hug,,

Thanks CLarA~

sweating like crazy~!!

SoRRy WiLH.. took this from ure bwog.. hehe~

BaRney.. BrYan.. VuI Leng.. SheiLa.. Me.. KeduNgs..

In ThE PooL :P

ThE GaLs~

AnD ThE GuYs~

A PhoTo.. can say a thousand things.. it can say a million things..

A PhoTo can capture the way were.. can capture the we are..

im gonna really miss our 2006 Rainforest Music Festival/Damai Lagoon Reunion.. it was fun having everyone back again.. but now all that's left are photo's and memories..

tired.. i can't open my eyes..

omg.. finals tonight and im feeling like a few tonnes of bricks on my eyes.. and my legs.. and my body.. wadeva.. im too tired.. i haven't posted anything fer a few days.. but ill post smth up tomoro.. im too tired.. too weak emotionally.. stressed out.. lack of sleep..

this is not goodbye~

GIE GIE~ dang.. a pussy fren whom i just met like a few weeks ago.. HAHA sorry gie.. referring to u as a pussy fren.. u should understand.. well.. its been fun... it wasn't a sausage fest when u were around that fer sure.. make sure u send me a package back from perlis.. =D take cares.. and break a leg..

well.. so much has changed.. wait.. actually not much has changed.. its just that ppl come back and ppl go.. getting so used to this incoming and outcoming.. wells.. i wanna leave.. when is it my turn? guess it wont happen yet.. annzian gone.. angie gone.. kun seng's gone.. jason lim's back.. yay.. but boo as well.. he doesn't look fer me one.. chiang the face disfigurer is going soon.. but yay.. rainforest is coming up.. alotta ppl is back in kch =D

im at steve's.. and i was bored the whole afternoon i could actually see a spider make a complete web of its own.. it was amazing.. but i soon destroyed it after.. =D im mean.. all that effort..

its one of those days u just wanna sit and talk to someone.. like SHEILA.. but sheila's not here boo hoo.. lets not talk about her..

ahhhh.. superman.. he's damn handsome man.. gals.. u can watch superman just to see how good looking he is.. hahaha.. my goodness.. his hair is so fine.. and his face is.. owh.. he's my new favourite superhero.. i just need kryptonite near me so he doesnt take advantage of my ass.. and lois~ kekekeke..

LOOK at that face..

ok ok.. enough of superman.. monday.. tuesday.. wednesday.. thursday.. friday.. and YAY!!! VVIP coming backs.. aiyaa.. dont wanna talk bout her la.. :P

im so so so bored... anyways.. chiao for nows.. =D