im sitting here in my office..

and this what happens..


*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
i have to follow steve to some $%&#ed up talk tonight
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
which i dont even wanna go one
*help Kelvin says:
lol
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
no use
*help Kelvin says:
why
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
lol
*help Kelvin says:
where
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
he said give him face ma
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
lol
*help Kelvin says:
what
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
so i said ok la.. i give u face la i go la
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
but i said i wont buy la
*help Kelvin says:
huh
*help Kelvin says:
what kinda talk isit
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
i no money
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
lol
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
his direct sales thingy
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
forgot what company already
*help Kelvin says:
direct sales????
*help Kelvin says:
for what
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
he ineterested ma
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
he say he wanna do this kinda thing ma
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
so like that la
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
dont ask so much
*help Kelvin says:
Why
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
coz its annoying
*help Kelvin says:
?
*help Kelvin says:
lol
*help Kelvin says:
okokoksoakdoasdk
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
i lazy explain
*help Kelvin says:
groovy
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
for more information on steve's company
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
ask steve.com
*help Kelvin says:
cool
*help Kelvin says:
http://www.steve.com/
*help Kelvin says:
steve change his surname?
*help Kelvin says:
steve perrillo
*help Kelvin says:
sounds cool
*help Kelvin says:
ahhahahaFDHAFSDf
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
hhaha
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
sounds shit to me
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
u really went ah
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
ahhaha
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
ill blog about it
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
copy and paste this on my blog
*help Kelvin says:
haha yes
*help Kelvin says:
lol
*help Kelvin says:
cb
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
blogging now
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
XD
*help Kelvin says:
WHAT
*one ShErM™ 3.51am says:
u nympho
*help Kelvin says:
mkay

GonE AgAin~

Fuck how i miss it so much when all of u guys were back.. if i had one wish id wish for u all to be back here in kuching.. it sucks when we all hafta part.. Sime.. Zian.. Jack.. Bran.. Kun.. Bry.. Chiang.. There's only left Ian.. Steve and Me.. =( sadly..

The Most Dangerous Place In Kuching..

i DUNNO WHY.. BUT I LOVE THIS PIC..

Kun In his Most Worst State~

JUST TAKE A LOOK!! LOOK AT HIS FACE!! MY GAWD.. HAHAHA..

sighssss

ohh.. yayy.. dotcom.. im having so much fine can die dotcom.. if i keep this up.. i might as well open my own cyber.. =D

jengg jenggg jenggg

happy belated new year to you all.. sorry for the late wishes..

as u all are aware of the situation with our connections.. it hasnt been much help lately if u wanna blog.. it takes forever just to sign in.. or the page just doesnt load..

2007.. well.. what can i say... time does pass pretty fast without u even realizing it sometimes.. turning 20 this year.. omg.. i lived 20 years.. and it feels short..

needless to say.. why waste it rigghttt.. lol.. okayy..

im bored.. seriously.. if i wasnt then i wouldnt be blogging.. coz then id be doing smth else.. hehe.. herrrmmm.

new year resolutions.. i did set some but i never did abide by them.. of course im trying to.. but sometimes u know u just cant be bothered.. good new year resolution huh.. blahhhh...

ciangs outside.. byeee..

pUh LeaSe..

im tired.. i need an extra boost of motivation.. an extra mile coupon or smtg.. just to keep my ass off the ground.. but no i cant..

why.. why are u so cruel to me..
why.. why am i like someone you can just throw around and forget the next day..
whyyy.. whyyy..

thanks but no thanks.. i feel like shit today..

uhmmmm..

you need to askmen.com coz they give u loads of things u wanna know about women.. sex.. sports.. drugs.. (ermm i dunno bout drugs..)
latest gossips.. ahhh.. all the guy stuff.. www.askmen.com

sometimes ignorance is bliss.. but sometimes its not..

when i was lil boy.. i always thought that life is perfect.. life has so much more meaning.. everything i did was fun.. no worries.. no resposibilities.. but as i grew older.. things changed.. you sometimes ignore the fact that u have responsibilities and u forget that ure responsibilities are more important. So then and there when u find out that u need to be serious with what u have, things change..

I dont want life to be a routine.. a planned road.. a straight line.. it gets so boring and old u feel like there is ntg special anymore.. i can go on and on.. bla bla bla.. its boring me to death thats all..

Have any of you guys..been treated differently.. like for example a friend.. he/she is so friendly.. so talkative around his/her friends.. but when that person is with you, he/she is a totally different person. Sometimes you feel it isn't fair that you are treated that way.. instead u want to be treated equally like everyone else... *Cries out Loud*

no point losing your temper.. all u get is a court case gone bad.. which is not a good thing... -_-''' it is if your the judge tho.. ok not funny..

errr im going to dip my head into the toilet bowl now.. you all have a good holiday.. for those who aren't having holidays.. HOHOHO good for you coz im not having one at all..

*Applause*

Everyone thank my darling for doing such a good job in redecorating/renovating/pampering my blog halfway then leave the job unfinished.. and expects me to clean up her mess.. in which i always dun mind.. because im so used to always having to finish her leftovers.. jkjk =D im just bored i feel like suanning someone..

his blog

ok.
confirm.

yeah, confirm.

that it's still screwed up.

how to put the whole thingy in the center?
the funny thing is, when i change background it goes to the center.
and when i change back to this background, it goes to the side.

*dies*

love,
"fat-piggy"

hallooo

hallo. if you are wondering, i am his so-called "fat-piggy" and i volunteered to change his template. but i think i screwed it up. eeks. :P i'm not done yet. but i'm too lazy now.

he doesnt know i'm cincaily writing an entry in his blog.
but he will.
someday.
HOHOHO.
ta~

in the midst of it all..

Damai was an unsual boring but fun experience.. without alcohol thats why.. as bryan threatened us.. that if we bought alcohol he'll throw it away.. and i was this close to getting a few beers but sheila pulled me back.. so no alcohol.. >.< *CrieEssss*

Kayaking was fun.. the view was simply undescribable.. we almost reached the little island but we had to turn back because it was getting dark.. and my arms were starting to fail on me.. despite kayaking.. all we did was swim around at the beach and swimming pool.. and in the room all we did was sang to this game singstar.. which is quite cool.. a game u had to sing along to the lyrics, timing and sing in tune.. at least in tune i think.. and mostly all we did was sleep the whole morning and we went back.. *sighs* waste of a damai trip but we could of gotten more fun out of it.. hehe thats what i think..

NO PICTURES.. wait wait.. got one.. with me and wilh.. *stolen from er blog

Such posers

baRz!nG

I've been going barzing alot lately.. just to chill.. drink and get pissed drunk if there's enough alcohol.. which is not a good thing but when u drink and get drunk who gives right.. =D so there we were.. the few of us.. we bought a bottle.. and in an hours or less than an hours time the whole bottle was gone..

my fat piggy and me..

Close up of us..

Me totally gone by the end of the night..

shifts

i boought these a few days ago.. +D was looking around Lea Sport Centre and i couldnt help it, my eyes were stuck to these babies..

chiang.. and his.. vagina..

ShErM™ says:
sheesh
ShErM™ says:
dont take it to the heart man
Chiang says:
ill just cry in my room instead
ShErM™ says:
don be gay
ShErM™ says:
u know its just to sissy to be gay
ShErM™ says:
u cry.. cry for wad
ShErM™ says:
cry so that mummy and daddy will hear u issit
ShErM™ says:
boo hoo
ShErM™ says:
im so sad to see u cry
Chiang says:
don be so mean to me...
Chiang says:
sniff
ShErM™ says:
sheesh
ShErM™ says:
when did u grow a vagina
ShErM™ says:
hah..
ShErM™ says:
since when did u grow a vagina?
Chiang says:
don scold me lahh
ShErM™ says:
rofl
Chiang says:
my heart very sensitive okk

everyone always leave..

Time and time again.. i always have friends who leave.. its like.. u know there's a bigger place out there but ure just somehow stuck.. ONE day.. im going to go somewhere far.. and u guys can miss me instead.. =D muahuahuahua...

Anyways.. zian u ass.. mich's getting all the fun.. lols.. it kinda does feel wierd not having u around ya know.. even tho u were in brunei.. it felt like u were still here in kch.. but when u left for melb.. i felt like shit.. this time he's really going.. somewhere far.. =(
at least sime comes back.. chiang comes back.. brandon comes back.. gilbert comes back.. even kun comes back.. WHY DONT U COME BACK DECEMBER instead.. i havent saved up any money at all.. sobs..

New Years Eve.. Travill..

~~_~~

A few weeks ago.. a childhood friend of mine from brunei came to Kuching for a wedding.. he called me up.. asked whether i was free and i could pick him up.. first night we went for a movie.. while waiting for the movie we down to waterfront for a walk..

Right opposite Hilton there's a stall there.. forgot whats it called.. but i saw bongs.. lots of it.. 5-6 of em.. and whoaa... i din know there was a shisha place at all.. besides little lebanon.. but ive never tried it there.. i was amazed and wanted to try so badly.. but then there wasnt enough time that night coz our movie was about to start..

CJ called me up the next day.. asked if i wanted to go smoke some shisha.. i was like YES YES! i havent even tried shisha before believe it or not.. but whoo.. so i picked him up and we went.. and tried it.. it tasted abit rough on the throat the first time.. i think it needs getting used to.. but its alot better than smoking believe me.. RM18 a bong.. free refill again.. but the feeling of smoking and smoking it over again makes u get sick of it.. but after when we left.. damn i wanted some more.. sobs..

Sad-ly-ly i din take any pictures that day.. so ill give u a rough picture of how the bong looks like..

the Bong looked smth like this.. but with aluminium foil covering the charcoal on top..

Don't Give Up..

Althought things at this point can be confusing and complicated.. dont give up.. ive been telling myself that for the past few days/weeks.. emotions churning within.. frustration hits.. anger builds.. but my tolerance is still holding me into place.. and i know if i give up.. its the end.. the end of what we both thought could be again..

your still here.. thats what matters.. and time can only tell where we both are headed.. and i know deep within that time wants us to walk together.. even tho were far apart.. or close together..

its hard when one wants and the other one doesnt.. and only time will make one agree with the other.. the hope.. the possibilties.. the memories.. dont let me doubt the thought of being with you..

you said u let go.. i said i havent and will always hold on..
you said u dont love me.. i said that i still love you and always will..
you said u cant go on anymore.. i said that we both can go on if we have each other..
you said ure leaving.. i said that im going with you..
you said u dun wanna go through this anymore.. i said that we aren't going thru it.. we've been thru it..
you said that it hurts to be with me.. i said it hurts to be without you..
you said that ure happy without me.. but deep down inside u.. ure not.. and i said im not happy without u..
you told me to give it all up.. and i told u im never going to..

u do the humpity dumpity..

someone take a broom and whack me.. i need to feel pain because i caused her great pain.. pls.. i guess i deserve it for blowing my any chance of ever even getting the one i love back.. i deserve to even be kicked in the balls.. trampled over.. hung by the neck.. i didnt even mean to do such things.. but things happen and i guess they always take it the wrong way.. id beg on my kness.. hold my breath underwater and drown so u can save me by giving CPR.. anything.. just dont walk away.. u still have my heart and u can break it and tear it and spit on it.. but in the end if u still walk away.. we'd never know what we could be..

a big boo boo..

this is bryan H'ng.. when he was turning 18..
but i dun have a pic of him when he turned 19..
becoz i din take any photos coz everyone else did and i figured id just be lazy and not take any..
i know im 2 days late bRa.. but better than never right.. happy belated bday bRy'..


this is bryan.. showing off his muscles a year ago..
and to the times we had together.. =D

love is all around you..

coz i feel it in my fingers.. i feel it in my toes.. blah blah blah.. YaY.. i dont know why i feel so cheerful and gay today.. but somehow.. i find that feeling cheerful and gay.. really makes my day.. actually i have ntg to write about.. forgive me for my non inspiring post.. its really just a reflection of just how i feel.. i gotta go.. EAT CHOW!