hallooo

hallo. if you are wondering, i am his so-called "fat-piggy" and i volunteered to change his template. but i think i screwed it up. eeks. :P i'm not done yet. but i'm too lazy now.

he doesnt know i'm cincaily writing an entry in his blog.
but he will.
someday.
HOHOHO.
ta~

in the midst of it all..

Damai was an unsual boring but fun experience.. without alcohol thats why.. as bryan threatened us.. that if we bought alcohol he'll throw it away.. and i was this close to getting a few beers but sheila pulled me back.. so no alcohol.. >.< *CrieEssss*

Kayaking was fun.. the view was simply undescribable.. we almost reached the little island but we had to turn back because it was getting dark.. and my arms were starting to fail on me.. despite kayaking.. all we did was swim around at the beach and swimming pool.. and in the room all we did was sang to this game singstar.. which is quite cool.. a game u had to sing along to the lyrics, timing and sing in tune.. at least in tune i think.. and mostly all we did was sleep the whole morning and we went back.. *sighs* waste of a damai trip but we could of gotten more fun out of it.. hehe thats what i think..

NO PICTURES.. wait wait.. got one.. with me and wilh.. *stolen from er blog

Such posers

baRz!nG

I've been going barzing alot lately.. just to chill.. drink and get pissed drunk if there's enough alcohol.. which is not a good thing but when u drink and get drunk who gives right.. =D so there we were.. the few of us.. we bought a bottle.. and in an hours or less than an hours time the whole bottle was gone..

my fat piggy and me..

Close up of us..

Me totally gone by the end of the night..

shifts

i boought these a few days ago.. +D was looking around Lea Sport Centre and i couldnt help it, my eyes were stuck to these babies..

chiang.. and his.. vagina..

ShErM™ says:
sheesh
ShErM™ says:
dont take it to the heart man
Chiang says:
ill just cry in my room instead
ShErM™ says:
don be gay
ShErM™ says:
u know its just to sissy to be gay
ShErM™ says:
u cry.. cry for wad
ShErM™ says:
cry so that mummy and daddy will hear u issit
ShErM™ says:
boo hoo
ShErM™ says:
im so sad to see u cry
Chiang says:
don be so mean to me...
Chiang says:
sniff
ShErM™ says:
sheesh
ShErM™ says:
when did u grow a vagina
ShErM™ says:
hah..
ShErM™ says:
since when did u grow a vagina?
Chiang says:
don scold me lahh
ShErM™ says:
rofl
Chiang says:
my heart very sensitive okk

everyone always leave..

Time and time again.. i always have friends who leave.. its like.. u know there's a bigger place out there but ure just somehow stuck.. ONE day.. im going to go somewhere far.. and u guys can miss me instead.. =D muahuahuahua...

Anyways.. zian u ass.. mich's getting all the fun.. lols.. it kinda does feel wierd not having u around ya know.. even tho u were in brunei.. it felt like u were still here in kch.. but when u left for melb.. i felt like shit.. this time he's really going.. somewhere far.. =(
at least sime comes back.. chiang comes back.. brandon comes back.. gilbert comes back.. even kun comes back.. WHY DONT U COME BACK DECEMBER instead.. i havent saved up any money at all.. sobs..

New Years Eve.. Travill..

~~_~~

A few weeks ago.. a childhood friend of mine from brunei came to Kuching for a wedding.. he called me up.. asked whether i was free and i could pick him up.. first night we went for a movie.. while waiting for the movie we down to waterfront for a walk..

Right opposite Hilton there's a stall there.. forgot whats it called.. but i saw bongs.. lots of it.. 5-6 of em.. and whoaa... i din know there was a shisha place at all.. besides little lebanon.. but ive never tried it there.. i was amazed and wanted to try so badly.. but then there wasnt enough time that night coz our movie was about to start..

CJ called me up the next day.. asked if i wanted to go smoke some shisha.. i was like YES YES! i havent even tried shisha before believe it or not.. but whoo.. so i picked him up and we went.. and tried it.. it tasted abit rough on the throat the first time.. i think it needs getting used to.. but its alot better than smoking believe me.. RM18 a bong.. free refill again.. but the feeling of smoking and smoking it over again makes u get sick of it.. but after when we left.. damn i wanted some more.. sobs..

Sad-ly-ly i din take any pictures that day.. so ill give u a rough picture of how the bong looks like..

the Bong looked smth like this.. but with aluminium foil covering the charcoal on top..

Don't Give Up..

Althought things at this point can be confusing and complicated.. dont give up.. ive been telling myself that for the past few days/weeks.. emotions churning within.. frustration hits.. anger builds.. but my tolerance is still holding me into place.. and i know if i give up.. its the end.. the end of what we both thought could be again..

your still here.. thats what matters.. and time can only tell where we both are headed.. and i know deep within that time wants us to walk together.. even tho were far apart.. or close together..

its hard when one wants and the other one doesnt.. and only time will make one agree with the other.. the hope.. the possibilties.. the memories.. dont let me doubt the thought of being with you..

you said u let go.. i said i havent and will always hold on..
you said u dont love me.. i said that i still love you and always will..
you said u cant go on anymore.. i said that we both can go on if we have each other..
you said ure leaving.. i said that im going with you..
you said u dun wanna go through this anymore.. i said that we aren't going thru it.. we've been thru it..
you said that it hurts to be with me.. i said it hurts to be without you..
you said that ure happy without me.. but deep down inside u.. ure not.. and i said im not happy without u..
you told me to give it all up.. and i told u im never going to..

u do the humpity dumpity..

someone take a broom and whack me.. i need to feel pain because i caused her great pain.. pls.. i guess i deserve it for blowing my any chance of ever even getting the one i love back.. i deserve to even be kicked in the balls.. trampled over.. hung by the neck.. i didnt even mean to do such things.. but things happen and i guess they always take it the wrong way.. id beg on my kness.. hold my breath underwater and drown so u can save me by giving CPR.. anything.. just dont walk away.. u still have my heart and u can break it and tear it and spit on it.. but in the end if u still walk away.. we'd never know what we could be..

a big boo boo..

this is bryan H'ng.. when he was turning 18..
but i dun have a pic of him when he turned 19..
becoz i din take any photos coz everyone else did and i figured id just be lazy and not take any..
i know im 2 days late bRa.. but better than never right.. happy belated bday bRy'..


this is bryan.. showing off his muscles a year ago..
and to the times we had together.. =D

love is all around you..

coz i feel it in my fingers.. i feel it in my toes.. blah blah blah.. YaY.. i dont know why i feel so cheerful and gay today.. but somehow.. i find that feeling cheerful and gay.. really makes my day.. actually i have ntg to write about.. forgive me for my non inspiring post.. its really just a reflection of just how i feel.. i gotta go.. EAT CHOW!

hmmmmm

okok enough shit talk already.. lets get down to some serious business.. ive been getting lots of cirticism lately about who i look like.. some might say i look like jay leno.. some might look like jack black.. i dun even know which one is close.. i'll leave u to decide that.. shall we.. hmmmmm

is it him?

or is it him?

Things wont always turn out the way u wan em to be..

i've found it hard time and time again to make things right but sometimes it just doesnt work.. u try hard and things just turn out even worse.. and when u dont try u feel there's smth wrong and u just cant help it but want to try.. and that someone doesnt even try at all.. its hard la... i was having a chat with a friend last night.. and things dont actually seem good even tho they say it is.. sometimes u can just see thru someone and know that things aren't so good.. everyone can see thru me like a transparent glass.. all my close frens can tell if there's smth going wrong.. and actually things have been going wrong for me for a few months now and i just can't fix it.. times change and u find there isn't actually much u can do about it..

if u really love someone so much.. ure so scared of letting go because ure unsure what the outcome will be in the end.. is that really love? or is it fear? to be honest i dun really know.. its true u'll always have ure ups and downs in ure relationship but what happens if things just become stale.. things become wierd all of a sudden and.. of course u wanna find out whats the problem.. but there's no answer to it.. you'll feel all insecure.. anxious.. curious all at the same time and its not a good feeling to have..

sometimes i feel like giving up on everything but is it really worth giving up just because u feel like shit.. no right? im holding on for dear life.. hoping that day would come.. but i know it aint gonna come anymore coz things aren't the way it used to be anymore..

ohh myy ohh myyy..

on a boring thurs night.. u play taiti/Big2.. and loser drinks a cup of chivas with coke la.. ok la not so bad la.. but then u know how much i hate chivas.. luckily i din lose 5 times straight in a row.. or i wont be able to go home..

bert the major loser.. lost 3 times.. so he had to down it 3 times.. keng man.. JACK U DIN ONE GO AT ALL.. Loser..

oh shit.. i look like a mofo gay ass shit.. my bad.. a sexy homosexual little cute boy.. HAHA LOOK AT BERT!

the three kuchingians.. staying true to kuching.. not leaving.. yet?~

damn streamyx

ive been trying to post for quite some time now.. but my pics wont upload.. due to i dunno whatever reason.. but really now streamyx is getting on my nerves.. sorry for complaining.. sometimes its fine.. really good.. fast.. and sometimes u can just wait there for like minutes.. like for at least a pic to show.. my goodness.. if the connection was good at home or at my office.. id at least have 5 posts up by now.. but since it aint so good.. im sorry.. PiaK(smack) my comp also no use.. call streamyx ask them make the connection faster issit.. send more bytes.. grrrrRRrrrr.. i cant even log on to my msn now.. wads this.. never ever had this prob b4..

phone call.. gotta get that...

time after time..

There she goes.. there she goes again.. my fat sexy dancing piggy has gone back to nilai.. which is quite good la.. not so much clubbing anymore.. but then again is also bad la.. i love clubbing also.. hmmmm.. sorry haven't been updating lately.. i really apologize.. more things to do in reality ya know.. life is too short.. don ya think? life expectancy 50 - 70 maybe nowadays.. depending.. ive been having a bad cough.. so bad that i need to cough to breathe normally.. i guess its just phlegm stuck in my windpipes.. but really.. stopped me from smoking.. i hope i can continue on without fags.. altho its tempting.. health's important.. sighs.. im working now.. i got a few pics to post.. i'll post em when i get home tonight or probably when im more free.. chiao ppl..

Dota Dota DoT AH!!~~~~

Every guy's favourite game and past time.. seriously.. Dota is the biggest topic guys talk about.. no doubt.. spend half your allowances/salary at cyber's just playing it.. actually i thought i got very sick of it at one point.. but its like a ciggarette u just need it.. so if u havent got the chance to play dota.. good.. don't!!

some more u got so many friggin heroes to choose from and.. it takes time to learn how to use them properly.. never ending combinations.. and shit u can do..

*coughs*

For those of you who dunno how a male brain looks like from the inside.. here's a closer look.. esp u angie.. since ure so fond of brains.. HAHA! jk..

As you all can see.. there are 2 big words repeated in our brains.. that is sex.. yes we might think of sex often but doesnt mean that all we think of is gettin it on.. God created us this way.. dern blame us for always being horny or complain that we never get enough.. u girls get enough of shopping or not.. no right.. HAH! i knew it.. if u female beings had like $50 million i think it still wouldnt be enough for shopping.. yes we love... sports... cars.. tv and remotes.. and scanning crotch areas?? im not sure bout that but im guessing its scanning chest areas.. im lazy to get into detail.. lets skip to the female brain shall we..

I guess that sums it all up..

Back in the Time...

ahhh gee.. i miss the old days where nothing used to matter.. no worries.. no stress.. when we were little weeners so to speak.. everything was just laid out for u at the table.. sometimes life forces you to change even when u dont want to... its what they call inevitable.. some people mature faster.. some people mature slower.. only life situations can determine it.. but i've learnt alot during my teen years.. its my last teen year and so far the last teen year is the worst when u go thru all this hormonal changes.. new workplaces/colleges.. have all your close frens leaving.. and u are not actually say forced to go out there and find new frens, its just that u dont wanna feel left out.. am i right? i may be wrong so correct me if i am..

Past 2 weeks again have been really terrible for me.. i just really dont know why.. things havent been the way it was for me.. i've been happier thats all i can say.. altho at times life pulls u down.. u always have good frens who come back at the right time.. they slap u and u wake up and see the real big picture.. not only to look at it from one perspective but at many different points.. simes back so i not only got company.. i gets lots of bum sex.. sorry zian.. ure missing out.. LoLs.. joking around.. i miss u zian.. really enjoyed ure company while u were here.. now look who's got a new chick huh.. lols..

ahh phewwwyyyy im bored..

Q. Why is it called a Wonder Bra?
A. When she takes it off, you wonder where her tits went.

Q. Why don't women blink during foreplay?
A. They don't have time.

Q. Why does it take 1 million sperm to fertilize 1 egg?
A. They don't stop for directions.

Q. How do you make five pounds of fat look good?
A. Give it a nipple.

Q. What did Adam say to Eve?
A. Stand back, I don't know how big this thing gets!

Q. How do you know when you are getting old?
A. When you start having dry dreams and wet farts

Q. What do Disney World & Viagra have in common?
A. They both make you wait an hour for a two minute ride.

Q. Why don't witches wear panties when flying on their broomsticks?
A. Better traction.

Q. Who can make more money in a week, a drug dealer or a prostitute?
A. The prostitute because she can wash and resell her crack.

Q. Why do bunnies have soft sex?
A. They have cotton balls

Q. How many newspapers can a woman hold between her legs?
A. One Post, two Globes, and many Times.

Q. Why do female skydivers wear jock straps?
A. So they don't whistle on the way down.

Q. What do women and police cars have in common?
A. They both make a lot of noise to let you know they are coming.

Q. Why is a woman's pussy like a warm toilet seat?
A. They both feel good, but you wonder who was there before you.

Q. What is the first sign of AIDS?
A. A pounding sensation in the ass.

Q. What did Cinderella do when she got to the ball?
A. Gagged

Q. What is the Difference Between Pussy and Apple Pie?
A. You can eat your mom's apple pie.

cLicK

I must say this is one of the best movies i've ever watched in my whole entire 19 years of my life.. it's hilarious.. its touching.. so when u put those 2 in a movie.. u get a damn frigging touching hilarious movie! and plus u got kate Beckinsale straddling along in the movie.. woooooooo... its a must watch movie for everyone out there.. after i watched it i felt like.. appreciating everything i had.. my parents.. my car.. my frens.. my sisters.. my job.. my work.. my baby ping ping.. its true how they say time flies.. but he made it go even faster and he missed so much in his life.. so i recommend this movie for everyone.. including yew! those who have watched it.. wells.. u cant say it wasn't a good movie...

when u got adam sandler in a movie.. be prepared to laugh ure shit out~

She was the hottie.. and i didn't even know she was in the movie until i saw her.. crikEy~